Deep reflections,
Stillness sees,
In pensive thoughts
That never cease;
And so much more
Than mere goodbye,
When restless times,
Freeze in the eye...

Tuesday, 25 December 2012

"Trainspotting"

If the boy in Ayan’s story lived where I do, he would probably have never liked to move to another place (though it’s difficult to imagine that Ayan’s characters wouldn’t have inherited his wanderlust!). For I stay close to a railway station and hence, often get an opportunity to see trains chugging along from the side of my buildings. Over the last several months, whenever I go down for a walk, I can’t help moving to the area closer to the railway tracks and once there, I keep waiting for trains to pass by. With local trains running at frequent intervals, sighting a train is never a long wait. However, what actually excites me is watching a long distance train zipping past. The sight of a long distance train tearing away and its rumbling and thundering sound evoke childlike wonder and awe in me. I thoroughly enjoy those moments, thrilled by speed and sound.

I usually stay there until I have seen at least one long distance train and then move on. However, at times, when the wait for a long distance train gets longer, I start walking back, trying very hard to be content with the sight of only local trains. But my heart continues to long for more and hence, if, while walking back, I again hear the sound of a train approaching, I rush back, often breaking into a run, anxious not to miss the spectacle. And finally when I get to see what I had waited for, it feels so immensely satisfying.

As a kid too, I used to enjoy watching trains. From one of the houses that we had stayed in while in Madhepura, we could see trains passing by far in the distance beyond a river. And we would often have fun counting the innumerable number of bogies of the goods trains, which seemed to be never-ending.

I have so many memories related to trains and train journeys, having done most of my travelling by trains. And while I am not too fond of journeys in general (for I don’t feel at peace until I have reached my destination), I do have a certain fascination for trains. In January this year, when after ages I travelled on a meter gauge train to Ratlam, I felt so nostalgic, remembering all the train journeys we had while going to and fro from Madhepura and on the Gaya-Kiul line. I would love to travel more frequently by trains in the coming years, feasting on the beautiful sights that only a train journey can offer. And hopefully, some of these would be trips without a pre-defined purpose so that I can just enjoy the journey instead of waiting for the destination.
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Thursday, 20 December 2012

Dreams

Strange it is, we chase our dreams
Though they ever move on farther,
But stranger still, when we win them all
Yet find in us a loser...
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Monday, 17 December 2012

Upon a cloudy day


In clouds lie our broken dreams
In little shards of sorrow,
And hence they float to distant lands
Where they try to borrow -
A little hope from a better sun,
A paintbrush of belief,
To eke out drops of smiling rain
That no more cry in grief.
And send back word through the western wind,
To the broken dreamer’s heart,
That life has moved beyond the clouds
Or what was there at start.
And what remains is nothingness,
With a little tomorrow,
But now bereft of broken dreams,
In little shards of sorrow…
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Sunday, 2 December 2012

Impact of non-existence of TV

With Cable TV going digital in Oct, TV at #1303, Hari Kunj II has been off for last 30 days.

Long discussions on pros and cons of bringing a set top box are also over among 3 of us - conclusion favoured its delay as far as possible.

Reason: Since TV went off, discussions and chats on what is happening in life of people living in #1303 has all the focus thereby bringing back much more life to the drawing room. No second thoughts on that !

With all 4 who have been the reason and source for spending quality time gone for their respective engagements - 3 off to marriage (2 to marry, 1 to attend) and 1 for work - it is almost next to extreme boredome for me - miss you guys !

Thanks to Meghdoot - some respite for me !

Sitting alone with all the time for myself I returned back to blogging after a gap of 3 years, probably, because there is no TV at home.

Or

Had it been there, boredom would not have existed to get me back to this.

Most of the times you want time for yourself. When its there you want to run becaue it can make you think too much - typical, avoidable, confusing!

Should try to sleep now. Good night.
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